Rambling With My Eyes Closed

I closed my eyes and typed every word that came out. I guess that makes this stream-of-consciousness poetry.

catch me
I'm falling
touch me
I'm fading
feel me
before I disappear
make me
be solid again
save me
make me real
I don't know
how to change
I want to
I want to end these games
so touch me
before I fade away
maybe you'll save me
maybe I will fall anyway
at least
we will know
the way it all works
why the pain grows
there has to be
so much more
here for us
before the storm
I can't
keep on pretending
that I don't
love you
like the morning
and the rainbows
I can't
pretend that
I hate you
that I'm crying for her
when the salty tears
are falling from my eyes
like raindrops
falling form saddened skies
and they're falling for you
falling for us
for all of this
broken trust
I just
want to love you
to love you
to be loved by you
my heart
is open
and beating
and bloodfilled
my heart
is growing
it's strengthening
for the fall
that comes with fading
please touch me
I need to feel you
I need to feel me
instead of feeling this
I can't rest
no matter what I do
I can't stop the voices
no matter what I think
I just want
to crawl
right out
of my skin
and see what
is there
beating within
so touch me
I'm fading
I'm about to fall
I'm raining
my soul
my heart
all of me
every part
the emotions and feelings
the cosmic dealings
they are ending now
I can't seem to find
my way out
of this rat trap
of this horrible
place I'm at
I'm falling
I'm fading
I'm breaking
no, I'm broken
I don't know where
to go from here
I just want to feel
solid and real
like a wooden boy
that's been made to feel
and his painted tears
are falling for real
so help me
save me
is that too much to ask
am I really worth so little
when you mean
the world to me
every single thing
I taste your words
with every breath
and I feel your skin
in the kiss of the winter wind
as it brushes me
like a boy, not a man
I can only feel you
inside of me, outside of me
somewhere I cannot see
let's hop into the car
let's drive to where we are
like we used to do
when we loved wildly
in our youth
come on baby
come to me
I've always been here
and I always will be
I can't move on
when the best thing is behind me
I can't be strong
when you've given up on me
so touch me
before I fade away
feel me
make me real
change this clay to flesh
change this wood to bone
make me whole