So I'm alone, but at least I'm free
11 Aug 2005I'm feeling kind of low on blood this morning. I went to have a blood test. It was the first time I've ever had blood drawn. I'm 25, can you believe it?
It hurt. Not a lot, but it did hurt. It was disturbing to look over when I was done and see seven vials of various sizes filled with my blood laying on the table beside me.
Somehow the sight of the blood triggered a response in me that put me into a wild cold sweat. The nurse asked if I was okay and I said “Yeah, I'm fine. That's just a lot of my blood over there and it's in the wrong place. It's supposed to be inside of me.”
To which she said “It's really not that much.”
I'm going to try and start focusing more at work. This past week has been mostly a write-off. I've gotten things accomplished, but not at the same lightning speed as normal. I think it has to do with a lack of passion for what I'm working on. I really need to start my own company I think. Middleware development seems the place to be. It's only about a 120 million dollar industry right now, but analysts say it will get up to almost a half billion in the next 10 years.
I could use a piece of that action. It would be some pretty things in nice places. Of course I'm the kind of guy that if I made 5+ million I'd retire. Who needs work when there are so many better things to do?