Strangeness
16 Jun 2005Everything is eternally strange. I think that's one of those simple truths I keep hearing about. My life is eternally strange, and as rollercoastery as ever.
Something very important is almost done and ready for a very important day that is almost here. It should only take another couple of weeks to finish up I hope.
I finally got some furniture. Of course, it is only shelving and a closet organizer. Somehow life likes to hand me all of the things I need in the least convenient order. Part of the challenge I guess.
It also has a way of saying “Ha ha! You've wanted this for months, maybe even years! Here are nine but you can only pick one!” As well as taking away the hope that I live on at some of the worst times, like a kick to the ribs when I'm already down.
Overall life has been going fairly well. I get to see and hear about how happy everyone around me is, which in turn does make me happy. It can lead to some late night deep thinking though, where I wonder what it would be like if I could contribute more to their happiness, and why it is that I can't.
You have to take the good with the bad, and the bad with the good. I'm pretty sure that's another one of those simple truths.
Work is still pretty slow and dull. I'm thinking that if I overcomplicate the problems they are given me to solve, and in turn oversolve them, it might make it interesting enough to challenge me. I know they have some confidence in my ability, they did give me a task that affected over 6000 files in the project, but even that wasn't really challenging. It was just time consuming.
Maybe work is so easy right now because everything else in life is so complicated. I'd rather change it I think so that life was a challenge and everything else went a little smoother for a while.
Random Thought I really want a BBQ! I just can't seem to find a convenient way to get a propane tank filled.
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