18 Mar 2005
I'm home and I'm sick and it sucks! I'm really bad at being sick, especially a runny nose cold. It's not the way it takes away my voice or the sore throat or the sore nose I hate. It's the sense that some part of my body has betrayed me. That no matter what I do short of taking cold medecine can make my nose stop running away.
Well that's a thoroughly disgusting intro I'm sure.
I am playing World of Warcraft. I do that a lot. It helps me enjoy my time off from work and it helps keep me from thinking too much about my test I had to take last night. I hate the waiting game.
Hey, if there are any girls out there who want to go to a wedding at the end of July let me know. I don't want to go alone. I absolutely dread the thought of going alone. It feels so much like a failure in some way.
cough cough sniffle damn cold!
18 Mar 2005
So I'm here. Why? Someone knows :)
The life I live is a roller coaster of epic proportions. I love my life, I hate my life. I love my job, I hate my job. Up and down with an occasional roll.
I've worked where I am now since university. I've gone as far up the corporate chain as I can and I've run out of challenges. Due to these roadblocks I've started looking for a new job and I've had some interest.
I always interview well. I've hardly ever met anyone I can't be friendly with or find a way to win over. So that part of the process is easy, and it did go smoothly. Then comes the technical part (I'm a programmer) and wow, just fucking WOW do those tests every get scary sometimes! There are just so many areas of programming and programming related knowledge in this world that you can't really prepare.
I just had a test that covered everything from predicate calculus to UML. From 3D math to proper use of breakpoints. Algorithms to data representation. It had almost everything I could have imagined.
I don't know how I did. I'm anxious about it, and that's weird. I don't get anxious. Anxious means that I want it. That I want this job and everything it means on some deep deep level. That means if I don't get it I'll be depressed and if I get it I'll be scared.
Big changes are scary. The world is down-right scary. Change is progress though, and I need some progression.
Anyway, so here I am. This is me and this is where I'll try and be. How often will I update? Haha, I have no idea. Whenever the mood strikes I guess.